As I said in my previous post, recently, Michael and I took a trip to Italy which we had been planning for some time. I was so so ecstatic to have some time away from… More
How are we almost half way through the year? Slow down, pls.
I said I was going to have a sober May but that has not happened at all. OH WELL. I would usually beat myself up over this but do ya know what, I have had fun and that’s okay! I had SO many good nights with friends and found myself a new favourite drink. Emma introduced me to a Berry Bramble and my oh my, LIFE = CHANGED.
It also explains why despite working hard in the gym, I haven’t lost any weight. Yes, my body is changing. But at a lot slower rate than I want. And yes, I am aware that is my own fault.
I feel like not much has been happening this month to be honest. The weather has completely changed and for the best part of the month, it has been beautiful. There’s so many more things to do when it’s sunny and everyone just seems to be in a better mood. With the summer starting to show itself, I have been on plenty of walks and the BBQ’s have begun!
Michael and I went to see Grease Lightning at the theatre and it was honestly insane. The whole show was so incredible and it was definitely a night to remember! Is it just me or when you are at a show do you just wish so badly that you could sing and dance and be on stage? I do, all the time.
I really don’t know how my weekly therapy is going to be honest. See when you just don’t know if there’s a difference or not? That’s how I’m feeling. I’ve built a good relationship with my psychiatrist though which is a good feeling. It is good seeing how things in my life have all linked together to make me feel like I do and I understand how they are linked but I just don’t know if it changes anything.
I don’t feel like I have much to report on to be honest. I just feel completely exhausted. Work has been so busy and so have weekends so I feel like I need a good break. Things are good. But I’m tired and I feel like I haven’t had a moment to myself, although I definitely have. I feel like I have hardly written which sucks. I have so many half written posts in my drafts but never get round to finishing them. I also feel like all I have written bout recently is mental health and as much as I love raising awareness and hoping that sharing will help others, I feel like I just keep repeating myself.
Oh my gooodness, it is June and this is the month I’ve been looking forward to the most! It is gonna be good. With me, it’s always the little things in life. In June, I won’t be needing any nights out now that Love Island is on! Absolutely buzzzing! It’s so sad how excited I am for appalling reality TV but I cannot wait!
Butttt… this month I also go to ITALY! I AM SO EXCITED. I cannot wait to visit the beautiful country and eat lots of ice cream and pizza and do lots of exploring.
I have promised myself I am going to eat and drink clean when I get home.
So that’s it for this month. Also, if you have any post ideas for me, pls leave a comment.
Big shout out to one of my favourites, Tyler! She’s going through a tough time but she’s a lil fighter.
Another month has flown past so of course, another bundle of books have been read! Here’s what I’ve been reading this month!
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban / JK Rowling
Harry Potter, along with his best friends, Ron and Hermione, is about to start his third year at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. Harry can’t wait to get back to school after the summer holidays. (Who wouldn’t if they lived with the horrible Dursleys?) But when Harry gets to Hogwarts, the atmosphere is tense. There’s an escaped mass murderer on the loose, and the sinister prison guards of Azkaban have been called in to guard the school…
Okay, I love this Harry Potter so much. I love how yo get to know so much more about his parents and their friendships. It just makes everything make sense! I love Sirius SO much. Ahhh just read it already if you haven’t.
Good Luck, Fatty?! / Maggie Bloom
Spunky North Carolina teen Bobbi-Jo Cotton is overweight, oversexed, underloved and misunderstood. When Dr. Harvey Lassiter, her former high school principal turned bicycle shop owner—with the help of Lex Arlington, a hometown celebrity—sponsors a charity bike race, Bobbi sees an opportunity to test her Schwinn and her fortitude. And when Tom Cantwell, her best (and only) friend, reveals he’s crushing on her, Bobbi figures it’s time to quit passing out screws like they’re dentists’ office suckers. What Bobbi is having a harder time letting go of is the resentment she feels toward her missionary parents, who, after abandoning her in the night, have flitted back into her life with a surprise: she’s about to be a big sister. Will Bobbi win the race (and maybe even lose the weight)? Can she overcome her promiscuous past and earn the trust of the boy she just may love? Will her parents care enough about her—or her new baby brother—to stick around (and if they don’t, will she be tough enough to survive another of their betrayals)? The only way to find out is to come along for the ride. The way Bobbi sees it, all of life’s questions can be answered from the seat of a bicycle. And if they can’t, at least your hair will look great fluttering in the breeze.
This was a light hearted easy read. I instantly fell in love with Bobbi, she was such a cute character. The plot isn’t the most riveting or interesting but sometimes it’s just nice to escape into someone elses world.
I Followed the Rules / Joanna Bolouri
Rule 1: Never ask him on a first date. Rule 2: Laugh admiringly at all his jokes. Rule 3: Always leave him wanting more. … wtf?! Have you heard of The Rules of Engagement? It’s a book that promises to teach you to find the man of your dreams in ten easy steps. Unsurprisingly, I don’t own a copy. What is it, 1892? But I’m a journalist, and I’ve promised to follow it to the letter and write about the results. Nevermind that my friends think I’m insane, I’m stalking men all over town and can’t keep my mouth shut at the best of times. My name is Cat Buchanan. I’m thirty-six years old and live with my daughter in Glasgow. I’ve been single for six years, but that’s about to change. After all, I’m on a deadline. I Followed the Rules and this is what happened.
This is the second of Joanna Bolouri’s work I have read and it is just as funny as the last. I instantly fell in love with Cat, and of course with her daughter Grace. I can relate to Cat so much and when I can connect so well with a character, I absolutely hate finishing the book. I love how realistic most of the situation and dates are in this book and I fell in love with this fiction just a few chapters in.
We Were Liars / E Lockhart
A beautiful and distinguished family.
A private island.
A brilliant, damaged girl; a passionate, political boy.
A group of four friends—the Liars—whose friendship turns destructive.
A revolution. An accident. A secret.
Lies upon lies.
We Were Liars is a modern, sophisticated suspense novel from New York Times bestselling author, National Book Award finalist, and Printz Award honoree E. Lockhart.
And if anyone asks you how it ends, just LIE.
I think this is one of the strangest books I have ever read. I gave it 2 stars on Good Reads because I just didn’t know what to make of it. But I think that might be the point. For me, there were far too many characters to begin with but it was easier to remember them nearer the end. I want to reread it to see if I understand it any better. It is very well written though.
Wuthering Heights / Emily Bronte
Emily Brontë’s only novel, a work of tremendous and far-reaching influence, the Penguin Classics edition of Wuthering Heights is the definitive edition of the text, edited with an introduction by Pauline Nestor. Lockwood, the new tenant of Thrushcross Grange, situated on the bleak Yorkshire moors, is forced to seek shelter one night at Wuthering Heights, the home of his landlord. There he discovers the history of the tempestuous events that took place years before; of the intense relationship between the gypsy foundling Heathcliff and Catherine Earnshaw; and how Catherine, forced to choose between passionate, tortured Heathcliff and gentle, well-bred Edgar Linton, surrendered to the expectations of her class. As Heathcliff’s bitterness and vengeance at his betrayal is visited upon the next generation, their innocent heirs must struggle to escape the legacy of the past.
I have not read Wuthering Heights since I was 16 and in high school. Analysing a book to the extent you do in Higher English, left me feeling extremely bored of this novel. Fast forward 7 years and I feel completely different. I absolutely loved rereading this and the book meant so much more than it did at 16. I enjoyed the characters so much and my opinion of them is now completely different than it was at 16.
Perfect (Flawed #2) / Cecelia Ahern
Celestine North lives in a society that demands perfection. After she was branded Flawed by a morality court, Celestine’s life has completely fractured–all her freedoms gone.
Since Judge Crevan has declared her the number-one threat to the public, she has been on the run with the complicated, powerfully attractive Carrick, the only person she can trust. But Celestine has a secret–one that could bring the entire Flawed system crumbling to the ground.
Judge Crevan is gaining the upper hand, and time is running out for Celestine. With tensions building, Celestine must make a choice: save only herself, or risk her life to save all Flawed…
I was SO excited for this to come out. My friend Katie was so so kind and sent this to me. As soon as I opened the cover, I could not put it down. It was so so easy to immerse myself back into Celestine’s world. JESUS IT WAS AMAZING. I really really urge you to go out and buy Flawed and Perfect.
How Not to Fall in Love, Actually / Catherine Bennetto
Emma has a job in television which is distinctly less glamourous and exciting than it sounds. She’s managed to claw her way up the ranks from Tea-Maker and Rubbish-Collector to 2nd Assistant Director (heavy on the ‘assistant’. Even heavier on the ‘2nd’).
So when she finds she’s accidentally very pregnant and at the same time accidentally very sacked (well, less accidentally: she did tell her boss to stick his job up his bum), she knows things are going to have to change.
Luckily she’s also accidentally the heir to a lovely cottage in Wimbledon, with a crazy Rottweiler-owning octogenarian as a neighbour and a rather sexy boy as an accidental tenant. But this baby is coming whether she likes it or not, and she needs to become the sort of person who can look after herself let alone another human being – and quickly.
I absolutely love the protagonist Emma. And I also absolutely love this story. I love how all the characters are completely different! But all so likeable. I am definitely looking forward to Catherine Bennetto’s creating more wonderfulness in the future.
What have you been reading recently?
Whether I am in a horribly low mood, or I’m in an amazingly good place in my mind, thousands of thoughts and questions go through my head about my mental health. This is probably completely normal. I just wanted to share some of these thoughts and see if anyone else goes through similar processes when they are in either a good or bad place.
I think it’s funny how our thoughts and attitudes towards ourselves can be completely different depending on a certain head space we are in. I think that the thoughts I have about my mental health when I am happy can be just as damaging as when I am sad because I set myself very high expectations.
Here are 10 examples of what goes on in my head when I think about my mental health when I am in a good place.
- Oh my godddd, I am like THE happiest person in the world. What even is a bad mood? Everything is AMAZING.
- I am so embarrassed I ever felt so low. Uhhh, why did I even think things were so bad? So glad I pulled myself together.
- I don’t even need therapy, it’s a waste of the NHS’ time. Somebody else should totally have my spot.
- Did I totally over react when I was in a bad place? Oh god, I must have. I hope people aren’t judging me. Everyone goes through bad times. I was totally over reacting.
- I have so much energy!! Why did I let myself get in a slump and abandon my routine for weeks? I feel great. Lets go do things.
- Why did I let myself cry that much? Girl, why didn’t you just cheer up. Crying is ugly. You were fine!
- Who freaks out about getting on a bus full of people or being in a crowd? That’s so weird. You’re making that shit up in your head girl, get over it. It’s a bloody bus, it’s not gonna eat you.
- Why did I care so much about people that don’t give a damn about me? I will never cry over anyone again! I am a sassy, independent woman who don’t need anyone else!
- Make lots of plans! I’ve wasted so much time moping around crying and feeling sorry for myself. Make up for it and make lots of plans for the next few months. I’m always gonna be this happy! Lets socialise every day.
- I do not have a mental health illness. I have pulled myself together! I have cheered up! I AM CURED.
It’s funny looking back at these because so much of these thoughts are unrealistic and total nonsense. And it has made me think, where the hell have you got these ideas from girl?! And I finally think I know the answer. STIGMA. I think it’s still the ongoing stigma surrounding mental health that makes me think these things when I am in a good place. I think that there’s nothing wrong with me and that I have ‘cheered up.’ It’s made me realise that I when I am in a good place, I need to focus on enjoying that happiness and good place that I am in. Not trying to make up excuses for why I have felt certain ways.
Have you ever had any of these thoughts?
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets / JK Rowling
The Dursleys were so mean and hideous that summer that all Harry Potter wanted was to get back to the Hogwarts School for Witchcraft and Wizardry. But just as he’s packing his bags, Harry receives a warning from a strange, impish creature named Dobby who says that if Harry Potter returns to Hogwarts, disaster will strike. And strike it does. For in Harry’s second year at Hogwarts, fresh torments and horrors arise, including an outrageously stuck-up new professor, Gilderoy Lockhart, a spirit named Moaning Myrtle who haunts the girls’ bathroom, and the unwanted attentions of Ron Weasley’s younger sister, Ginny. But each of these seem minor annoyances when the real trouble begins, and someone, or something, starts turning Hogwarts students to stone. Could it be Draco Malfoy, a more poisonous rival than ever? Could it possibly be Hagrid, whose mysterious past is finally told? Or could it be the one everyone at Hogwarts most suspects: Harry Potter himself?
Just read it if you haven’t already. The Harry Potter books are phenomenal and are so much more in detail than the films. They explain so so much. Chamber of Secrets is so so good, it makes you properly understand what the Chamber of Secrets is etc etc.
Gone Girl / Gillian Flynn
On a warm summer morning in North Carthage, Missouri, it is Nick and Amy Dunne’s fifth wedding anniversary. Presents are being wrapped and reservations are being made when Nick’s clever and beautiful wife disappears. Husband-of-the-Year Nick isn’t doing himself any favours with cringe-worthy daydreams about the slope and shape of his wife’s head, but passages from Amy’s diary reveal the alpha-girl perfectionist could have put anyone dangerously on edge. Under mounting pressure from the police and the media—as well as Amy’s fiercely doting parents—the town golden boy parades an endless series of lies, deceits, and inappropriate behaviour. Nick is oddly evasive, and he’s definitely bitter—but is he really a killer?
This was such a strange read. I enjoyed it though! It took a while to get into and the first quarter of the book was pretty slow. I much preferred Amy’s character after she was honest, I didn’t really enjoy the diary entry Amy. The plot is very exciting but can seem quite confusing nearer the end, as if the story went too far.
Mad Love / Nick Spalding
Can two people who have never met make a marriage work? Popular dating site Sociality thinks so, and is marrying London lad Adam to California girl Jessica to prove it.
What better way to show that your ‘love algorithms’ work than to put two complete strangers together in an expensive publicity stunt? But, as livewire Jess and lazybones Adam quickly discover, just because a computer says you’re the perfect match, it doesn’t make it so! Two million Sociality subscribers and the media are following the happy couple’s progress, and they have to make a go of it or they’ll lose everything, look like idiots, and destroy Sociality’s reputation. But can the mismatched pair, who seem to be constantly at each other’s throats, put their differences aside and work their way into each other’s hearts? Nick Spalding, bestselling author of Fat Chance and Bricking It, will make you cry with laughter at this story of marital warfare—complete with sinking boats, badly aimed flatulence, well aimed tennis balls and some very suggestive pastry.
Ahh I just love Nick Spalding. I laugh out loud at ALL his work. He is such a funny author. Both Adam and Jess tell their stories throughout this book and I love how Spalding can write so well of both points of view of male and female characters. Great read!
Our Chemical Hearts / Krystal Sutherland
Henry Page has never been in love. He fancies himself a hopeless romantic, but the slo-mo, heart palpitating, can’t-eat-can’t-sleep kind of love that he’s been hoping for just hasn’t been in the cards for him—at least not yet. Instead, he’s been happy to focus on his grades, on getting into a semi-decent college and finally becoming editor of his school newspaper. Then Grace Town walks into his first period class on the third Tuesday of senior year and he knows everything’s about to change. Grace isn’t who Henry pictured as his dream girl—she walks with a cane, wears oversized boys’ clothes, and rarely seems to shower. But when Grace and Henry are both chosen to edit the school paper, he quickly finds himself falling for her. It’s obvious there’s something broken about Grace, but it seems to make her even more beautiful to Henry, and he wants nothing more than to help her put the pieces back together again. And yet, this isn’t your average story of boy meets girl. Krystal Sutherland’s brilliant debut is equal parts wit and heartbreak, a potent reminder of the bittersweet bliss that is first love.
I absolutely fell in love with Henry Page. I love love loved him. I feel like this story and plot is pretty realistic as there is so much pain and suffering and covers the theme of loss really well. It shows you that not everything goes as expected and that is just how life works.
I was Here / Gayle Foreman
When her best friend Meg drinks a bottle of industrial-strength cleaner alone in a motel room, Cody is understandably shocked and devastated. She and Meg shared everything—so how was there no warning? But when Cody travels to Meg’s college town to pack up the belongings left behind, she discovers that there’s a lot that Meg never told her. About her old roommates, the sort of people Cody never would have met in her dead-end small town in Washington. About Ben McAllister, the boy with a guitar and a sneer, who broke Meg’s heart. And about an encrypted computer file that Cody can’t open—until she does, and suddenly everything Cody thought she knew about her best friend’s death gets thrown into question.
Honest opinion? I had such high expectations for this book because of the previous work of Gayle Foreman’s I had read. It’s not that it wasn’t good, I just expected it to be amazing. I didn’t really connect with any of the characters. But I guess that kinda fits the theme of the book. Cody is lost without her best friend and feels like it’s hard to exist, and that comes across well as you cannot really connect to her.
The Stranger in my Home / Adele Parks
Alison is lucky and she knows it. She has the life she always craved, including a happy home with Jeff and their brilliant, vivacious teenage daughter, Katherine – the absolute centre of Alison’s world. Then a knock at the door ends life as they know it. Fifteen years ago, someone else took Alison’s baby from the hospital. And now Alison is facing the unthinkable. The daughter she brought home doesn’t belong to her. When you have everything you dreamed of, there is everything to lose.
AHHHH I LOVED this book. Such a great plot! It drags a bit in the middle but I love how you find out about Alison’s past as well as the present situation she is in. The characters are all so different and you can relate to every one of them. All I can say is, plot twist or what?!
So, that’s what I had been reading last month. Have you got any book suggestions for me?
I never posted my March favourites last month because to be honest, I only had 3 and the content was definitely not worthy of a post. But this month I definitely have some new favourites!
Kat Von D / Everlasting liquid Lipstick / Double Dare
Can I just say, WOW. These are AMAZING. It took me so so long to pick what shade I wanted. Anyhow, these liquid lipsticks are absolutely incredible. They last ALL day and they don’t feel heavy on your lips at all which makes them even better. They apply so smoothly and doesn’t have the cracked lip look that I sometimes find with other liquid lip products.
Anastasia Beverly Hills / Modern Renaissance
I have wanted this palette for AGES. I’m pretty sure I swither over buying it every single pay day but I just couldn’t ever justify spending £42 on myself. When we were in Sephora, I told Michael how much I adored this palette and he got it for me for my birthday! I was absoolutely buzzing. The fourteen shades in this palette are all so unique and I love every single one of them. The red shades have made me step out of my comfort zone and I’m loving it! The pigmentation is absolutely incredible and you do not need to use much at all!
New Look Beauty / Lip Colours
I’m not gonna lie, I was so sceptical about New Looks Beauty range until I finally got round to trying it out. I thought the products would be bad quality and greasy but I was so so wrong. I picked up a normal lipstick, a lip crayon and a liquid lipstick because I wanted to give them all a try. The quality of the products is great and the packaging is gorgeous! All three products are long lasting and the shades are beaut! The prices are incredible AND it was 3 for 2.
Urban Decay / Vice / Amulet
I kindly received this from my friend Katie for my birthday and oh man, I am in love. I adore liquid lipsticks and this is no exception. The shade Amulet is absolutely gorgeous and is a deep red / burgundy shade. I love it! I’ve worn it most days since I got it which shows how much it goes with everything. The formula dries so quickly which is so handy if you’re in a rush. The product also stays on your lips for hours at a time, definitely useful if you’re a big coffee drinker like myself.
Broadchurch / Series 3
AHHHHHH. The final season of Broadchurch. I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE Olivia Coleman and David Tenant and together they are so so funny. I was so excited for the final series to air as I have followed the program since series one. This series was quite close to home but that made me want to watch it even more! The ending of the series was not as unexpected as the previous series’ of the program but I still thoroughly enjoyed it.
Set three years after the previous series, the eight-episode series focuses on the sexual assault of a local middle-aged woman in the fictional, close-knit coastal town of Broadchurch in Dorset, England.
Ed Sheeran / Divide
When Ed dropped his new album I had it on repeat non stop. I thought I would have gotten sick of it but throughout April I have still been playing it all the time. I think that it’s definitely his best album so far. I feel like I can relate to so so many of the songs and there’s music for any kind of mood you’re in!
What were your favourite things this month? Drop me a comment!
Hello my sweeeets. I have been MIA this month on the blog and social media and I have no idea what’s wrong with me. I have no inspiration and literally nothing to write about. So, I just haven’t. Not written a thing. But by the middle of the month, I started to work on my piece for Beautiful Minds and it made me want to write so much again!
First things first, (I’m the realist), this month has gone so so quickly. It was Easter, then my birthday on the 17th and Michael’s on the 27th so yay to celebrations!
I had a great time celebrating Easter with a lovely meal out with Michael’s family and family friends. Lots of food and wine was consumed and it was great spending time with everybody.
I spent a lot of time with friends this month! I got to see Katie and we went for cake like we used to always do! (Hi Katie, miss you.)
I went for some drinks with friends for my birthday and it was great getting different groups of people together. I had so much fun! I got so many lovely gifts of people and I am so so grateful!
Far too much alcohol was consumed this month but it was a great month so that seems okay. I have definitely put on weight this month which sucks but tomorrow is a new day right?
I took a week off work to head home and visit my family and friends and it was lovely! I had such a relaxing week and got some much needed chill time and catch ups with my friend. I even managed to go out on two runs which I was very impressed with. I was on holiday after all.
Michael and I took a spontaneous trip to New Lanark and it was such a lovely town! I didn’t even know it existed! New Lanark Visitor Centre is a former 18th century cotton spinning mill village located on the banks of the Falls of Clyde. It was so cool seeing original mill buildings and houses in the town.
Clearly, my mental health hasn’t been tremendous this month as I still feel pretty numb and empty. But I had two great therapy sessions this month which put a lot of my feelings over the past years into perspective. I’m starting to build a good relationship with my psychiatrist which is fabbby. I haven’t been as active on social media as I felt like I haven’t had anything to say!
The most exciting part of this month was that Michael and I booked our summer holiday to Italy! We are going to explore Milan, Florence, Bolognia and Lake Garda in June and I am so so excited. I have never visited Italy before so it will be such a great experience!
So that’s a lil catch up for me, what have you been up to this month?
Long time no speak my friends. But I’m back and with a post that isn’t really something I’d normally write about. I have no idea where I got the inspo from for this post but I digress. I have a constant battle with my weight and have been a ‘plus size’ for as long as I remember. I do shop in high street shops which sell ‘normal’ sized clothing but I often feel uncomfortable in them or they just don’t fit my body right. It also doesn’t help that the same size in different shops varies so so much. In New Look, I can wear a size 16 jeans but in Primark, I can’t even get a size 18 over my thighs. It just doesn’t make sense.
Recently, I have been shopping more online and I have been buying stuff mostly from ‘plus size’ ranges. I’m not even going to go into the term ‘plus size’ because that is an argument long enough for a separate post. Anyway, everyone has different shapes and sizes and for those who shop through plus sized ranges, I wanna share my favourite shops and sites. Pls don’t slate me, I’ve never done a ‘fashion post’ before, but I thought it could be helpful to some.
In the style launched a plus size range called In The Style Curve and it is honestly my go to site, especially when I’m in need of a dress! They offer plus sizes of some of their celebrity ranges which I absolutely adore! ~The prices for their clothes are so so affordable and there is usually some sort of discount being offered, whether it is free discount or a percentage off your order. The variety of styles is great and there’s actually a decent sized range of clothing, unlike other shops which only offer a couple of options.
Boohoo is my favourite place to shop for plus sized clothing. The range is absolutely brilliant and there are so many products. It makes you feel like you have a choice in products and there are lots of options, which sometimes with other retailers, doesn’t feel like the case. I’m SO looking forward to shopping for my holiday because their holiday shop is absolutely stunning! I have ordered so many little bits from Boohoo plus size and curve range and it’s a great place to shop for everyday clothes. The prices are so reasonable and there’s always some sort of sale on!
ASOS Curve is a fab range. I love it because there are so many different brands so you can always find something different. It is so so good for oversized denim jackets. Some prices are a lot more affordable than others but I still love it because it means you have everything
A lot of my current wardrobe is from the plus size range in New Look. I absolutely love a lot of their items! Their spring range is so lovely and there are so many pastel colours and it’s just so lovely! The only thing I would criticise is sometimes there are a lack of range of products and it’s difficult to find something you like.
I was looking for a formal dress to wear and was really struggling to find anything for us bigger gals out there. Somebody on Twitter directed me to Chi Chi and I was so delighted to find out they had a plus size range! The range of dresses are absolutely stunning, in all colours and lengths. I’m definitely going to be ordering from them again for the next formal event I go to in November.
So, as a bigger girl I find it hard to shop for clothes so I thought I’d share my five favourite shops right now! Do you have any recommendations?