March 2018? Long time no type. I have been MIA since before Christmas on here and to be honest, I don’t have an excuse. I’ve just had no motivation and nothing to write about. I have actually been living in the moment. SAY WHAT? Normally not having a plan would freak me out but I’m trying to chill and be more zen.
I have decided that this year is the year for doing things that scare the shit out of me. Why? Because I need a challenge, I almost crave it. Last year was about stabilising, not just my mental health but other aspects of my life and I can honestly see such a difference in myself. I have read so many books about people pushing themselves and it’s really made me want to join in!
So, 2018, I’ve already got good feelings about you.
Every month I’m trying to do at least one thing which scares the shit out of me. Whether it’s a tiny little thing, or something of much more importance, I want to push myself. Not too much right enough, because then I’ll end up going in a downwards spiral but I think I’m at the stage that I now know my limits which I think is an achievement itself.
Michael and I went to Budapest in January. I like to spend a bit of time myself in the mornings, having coffee and reading and when we’ve been away in the past I get really worked up about going to little cafes myself. This is probably common for a lot of people if you’re in an unfamiliar place and don’t know anyone around you. But this time, in Budapest, I tried to stay calm and push negative thoughts to the back of my head. It was so busy that I didn’t feel that anybody was looking at me which made me feel more relaxed. This made me want to go out each morning myself and for me, I call that progress.
Book a driving lesson (this absolutely terrifies me but I have it booked and I’m going to learn to drive. Stay off the roads friends. I have not had a driving lesson since I was 17 because quite simply, I was AWFUL. I have no coordination whatsoever. I know these things take time but I honestly just could not pick it up at all. Fast forward almost 7 years and I am really keen to get this driving malarkey under my belt. So I had my first lesson a couple of weeks ago and I was absolutely TERRIFIED. But it went so well and my instructor is so patient and reassuring and I cannot wait to keep going!
I have no idea what to do in March to push myself out of my comfort zone so I need to come up with something soon. If you have any suggestions, please leave a comment as I need ideas and motivation.
What have you done this year that scares you?