Will I give up?

I’ve always put off joining a weight loss club of any sort cos I’ve always been determined to do it on my own. HAH. Doesn’t work for me. When one of my friends had been successfully losing weight after joining Slimming World, I was so tempted to start. But there was absolutely no chance in hell I was going to weekly group weigh ins so I decided I’d do it online. I’ve been absolutely loving it so far and it has added so much food to my diet that I wouldn’t have even touched before! I’m really enjoying cooking absolutely everything from scratch and it’s definitely a lifestyle and not a diet! It takes a lot of organisation but I’m determined this time!

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Don’t get me wrong, it’s not been easy. Sometimes I really just want some greasy food and to pig out but I’ve only slipped up a few times! I’ve struggled when it comes to eating out with friends etc so on days that I’ve done so, I just try and have a smaller meal for dinner if I’ve been out for lunch. I’m just not one of these people that can go out and order a salad when there’s so many things I’d rather have on the menu. Like, how can you say no to a mug of chilli and garlic bread? But that’s my weakness and I need to work on that. But baby steps. Will I give up trying to change things? Hopefully not this time.

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I think when changing your lifestyle like this you need to have the correct mentality to do so which I have always struggled with. It’s bloody hard. Especially when you can’t see change and feel absolutely no different. I know it’s a long process and these things don’t happen over night and as Elliot keeps reminding me ‘it’s a marathon, not a sprint.’

For someone who has to have long term plans, I find it IMPOSSIBLE to see where I want to be with my body and relationship with food. I feel like I’ll never get there because to be honest, I’ve never been there before. And that can be scary but should also be exciting. Googling pictures of what you want your end goal to be DOES NOT WORK. I also am absolutely TERRIFIED of change so I’ve found changing my lifestyle pretty difficult. I’ve been changing little things at a time so hopefully these little changes will be here  to stay. This is why I am writing this post, because if I’ve shared it then I’ll have more motivation to keep going.

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Weight loss aside, changing your attitude towards anything can be quite a struggle. For some people, it can be quite simple but for others like myself, it takes proper hard work and determination. In my next post, I’m going to share some tips on how I have changed my attitude, and not just towards my lifestyle.

Do you find changing your attitude difficult?

Much love,

louise-x

10 Thoughts During a Good Mental Health Day

Whether I am in a horribly low mood, or  I’m in an amazingly good place in my mind, thousands of thoughts and questions go through my head about my mental health. This is probably completely normal. I just wanted to share some of these thoughts and see if anyone else goes through similar processes when they are in either a good or bad place.

I think it’s funny how our thoughts and attitudes towards ourselves can be completely different depending on a certain head space we are in.  I think that the thoughts I have about my mental health when I am happy can be just as damaging as when I am sad because I set myself very high expectations.

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Here are 10 examples of what goes on in my head when I think about my mental health when I am in a good place.

  1. Oh my godddd, I am like THE happiest person in the world. What even is a bad mood? Everything is AMAZING.
  2. I am so embarrassed I ever felt so low. Uhhh, why did I even think things were so bad? So glad I pulled myself together.
  3. I don’t even need therapy, it’s a waste of the NHS’ time. Somebody else should totally have my spot.
  4. Did I totally over react when I was in a bad place? Oh god, I must have. I hope people aren’t judging me. Everyone goes through bad times. I was totally over reacting.
  5. I have so much energy!! Why did I let myself get in a slump and abandon my routine for weeks? I feel great. Lets go do things.
  6. Why did I let myself cry that much? Girl, why didn’t you just cheer up. Crying is ugly. You were fine!
  7. Who freaks out about getting on a bus full of people or being in a crowd? That’s so weird. You’re making that shit up in your head girl, get over it. It’s a bloody bus, it’s not gonna eat you.
  8. Why did I care so much about people that don’t give a damn about me? I will never cry over anyone again! I am a sassy, independent woman who don’t need anyone else!
  9. Make lots of plans! I’ve wasted so much time moping around crying and feeling sorry for myself. Make up for it and make lots of plans for the next few months. I’m always gonna be this happy! Lets socialise every day.
  10.  I do not have a mental health illness. I have pulled myself together! I have cheered up! I AM CURED.

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It’s funny looking back at these because so much of these thoughts are unrealistic and total nonsense. And it has made me think, where the hell have you got these ideas from girl?! And I finally think I know the answer. STIGMA. I think it’s still the ongoing stigma surrounding mental health that makes me think these things when I am in a good place. I think that there’s nothing wrong with me and that I have ‘cheered up.’ It’s made me realise that I when I am in a good place, I need to focus on enjoying that happiness and good place that I am in. Not trying to make up excuses for why I have felt certain ways.

Have you ever had any of these thoughts?

Much love,

louise-x

April Favourites

I never posted my March favourites last month because to be honest, I only had 3 and the content was definitely not worthy of a post. But this month I definitely have some new favourites!

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Kat Von D / Everlasting liquid Lipstick / Double Dare

Can I just say, WOW. These are AMAZING. It took me so so long to pick what shade I wanted. Anyhow, these liquid lipsticks are absolutely incredible. They last ALL day and they don’t feel heavy on your lips at all which makes them even better. They apply so smoothly and doesn’t have the cracked lip look that I sometimes find with other liquid lip products.

 

 

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Anastasia Beverly Hills / Modern Renaissance

I have wanted this palette for AGES. I’m pretty sure I swither over buying it every single pay day but I just couldn’t ever justify spending £42 on myself. When we were in Sephora, I told Michael how much I adored this palette and he got it for me for my birthday! I was absoolutely buzzing. The fourteen shades in this palette are all so unique and I love every single one of them. The red shades have made me step out of my comfort zone and I’m loving it! The pigmentation is absolutely incredible and you do not need to use much at all!

 

New Look Beauty / Lip Colours

I’m not gonna lie, I was so sceptical about New Looks Beauty range until I finally got round to trying it out. I thought the products would be bad quality and greasy but I was so so wrong. I picked up a normal lipstick, a lip crayon and a liquid lipstick because I wanted to give them all a try. The quality of the products is great and the packaging is gorgeous! All three products are long lasting and the shades are beaut! The prices are incredible AND it was 3 for 2.

 

Urban Decay / Vice / Amulet

I kindly received this from my friend Katie for my birthday and oh man, I am in love. I adore liquid lipsticks and this is no exception. The shade Amulet is absolutely gorgeous and is a deep red / burgundy shade. I love it! I’ve worn it most days since I got it which shows how much it goes with everything. The formula dries so quickly which is so handy if you’re in a rush. The product also stays on your lips for hours at a time, definitely useful if you’re a big coffee drinker like myself.

 

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Broadchurch / Series 3

AHHHHHH. The final season of Broadchurch. I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE Olivia Coleman and David Tenant and together they are so so funny. I was so excited for the final series to air as I have followed the program since series one. This series was quite close to home but that made me want to watch it even more! The ending of the series was not as unexpected as the previous series’ of the program but I still thoroughly enjoyed it.

Set three years after the previous series, the eight-episode series focuses on the sexual assault of a local middle-aged woman in the fictional, close-knit coastal town of Broadchurch in Dorset, England.

 

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Ed Sheeran / Divide

When Ed dropped his new album I had it on repeat non stop. I thought I would have gotten sick of it but throughout April I have still been playing it all the time. I think that it’s definitely his best album so far. I feel like I can relate to so so many of the songs and there’s music for any kind of mood you’re in!

 

What were your favourite things this month? Drop me a comment!

Much love,

louise-x

March Reads

Hello my lovelies! March has been an absolutely incredible month book wise! I read so much, most of it being romance / chic lits which I absolutely love. This coming month I’m going to try and read more genres out of my comfort zone which I am looking forward to!

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Stockings and Cellulite / Debbie Viggiano

As the clock strikes midnight on New Year’s Eve, Cassandra Cherry’s life takes a turn for the worse when she stumbles upon husband Stevie lying naked, except for his socks, on a coat-strewn bed with a 45-year-old divorcee called Cynthia.

Suddenly single, Cass throws herself into the business of getting over Stevie with gusto. Her main problems now are making her nine-year-old twins happy, juggling a new social life with a return to work and avoiding being arrested by an infuriating policeman who always seems to turn up at the most inopportune moments.

Then, just when Cass is least prepared, and much to Stevie’s chagrin, she crashes head over heels in love with the last person she’d ever expected.

This was an absolutely fantastic read! So many ‘laugh out loud’ moments. I managed to get it for £1 on my Kindle, BARGAIN. I will definitely be downloading more of Debbie Viggiano’s books as if this one is anything to go by, they too will be fantastic!

 

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Flawed / Cecila Ahern

Celestine North lives a perfect life. She’s a model daughter and sister, she’s well-liked by her classmates and teachers, and she’s dating the impossibly charming Art Crevan. But then Celestine encounters a situation in which she makes an instinctive decision. She breaks a rule and now faces life-changing repercussions. She could be imprisoned. She could be branded. She could be found FLAWED.

In this stunning novel, bestselling author Cecelia Ahern depicts a society in which perfection is paramount and mistakes are punished. And where one young woman decides to take a stand that could cost her everything.

I was recommended this book by a friend who said that because I LOVE Hunger Games, I will enjoy this. AHH it was excellent. Celestine’s character development was incredible and I really felt connected to her. I also grew to really like and admire Summer, Celestine’s mum. Especially in the final chapter! I am SO excited to start reading the sequel ‘Perfect.’ One questions though, where on earth is the video??

 

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The One Memory of Flora Banks / Emily Barr

HOW DO YOU KNOW WHO TO TRUST WHEN YOU CAN’T EVEN TRUST YOURSELF?

I look at my hands. One of them says FLORA BE BRAVE.

Flora has anterograde amnesia. She can’t remember anything day-to-day: the joke her friend made, the instructions her parents gave her, how old she is.Then she kisses someone she shouldn’t, and the next day she remembers it. It’s the first time she’s remembered anything since she was ten. But the boy is gone. She thinks he’s moved to the Arctic. Will following him be the key to unlocking her memory? Who can she trust?

This book has a great plot. I absolutely love Flora’s character in it and I felt so much sympathy towards her throughout the whole book. It really makes you realise the daily struggles of someone with amnesia, I couldn’t even imagine what it would be like to live with the illness. I absolutely fell in love with Jacob and the relationship between the two siblings is amazing. I gave this book 3 stars on good reads because I felt like it dragged a little.

 

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Mad Girl / Bryony Gordon

Bryony Gordon has OCD. It’s the snake in her brain that has told her ever since she was a teenager that her world is about to come crashing down: that her family might die if she doesn’t repeat a phrase 5 times, or that she might have murdered someone and forgotten about it. It’s caused alopecia, bulimia, and drug dependency. And Bryony is sick of it. Keeping silent about her illness has given it a cachet it simply does not deserve, so here she shares her story with trademark wit and dazzling honesty. A hugely successful columnist for the Telegraph, a bestselling author, and a happily married mother of an adorable daughter, Bryony has managed to laugh and live well while simultaneously grappling with her illness. Now it’s time for her to speak out. Writing with her characteristic warmth and dark humour, Bryony explores her relationship with her OCD and depression as only she can.

This book is just so honest. Bryony’s story is both realistic and at times, light hearted. Her stories from her teenage years are just hilariopus. I love reading about different mental health illnesses so reading about OCD and how it affects her daily life was very educational.

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The List / Joanna Bolouri

Phoebe Henderson may be single but she sure doesn’t feel fabulous. It’s been a year since she found her boyfriend Alex in bed with another woman, and multiple cases of wine and extensive relationship analysis with best friend Lucy have done nothing to help. Faced with a new year but no new love, Phoebe concocts a different kind of resolution. The List: ten things she’s always wanted to do in bed but has never had the chance (or the courage!) to try. A bucket list for between the sheets. One year of pleasure, no strings attached. Simple, right? Factor in meddlesome colleagues, friends with benefits, getting frisky al fresco and maybe, possibly, true love and Phoebe’s got her work cut out for her.

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I read the blurb of this and instantly knew I had to download it on my Kindle. This is honestly one of the funniest books I have EVER read. EVER. There are SO many moments in the book when you’re just like ‘ahhhh I know this feeling’ and that’s what makes it so wonderful. I absolutely fell in love with the protagonist, Phoebe. She was fantastic and so so funny. I just want to know what happens next to Phoebe.

 

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A Spring Affair / Milly Johnson

I knew from the get go that I wouldn’t be disappointed in this novel. Milly Johnson never EVER lets me down. And I think this one was even more special because the protagonist was called Lou too! Throughout this book, you want to both laugh and cry as the plot is so heart wrenching. I always love Milly Johnson’s characters and those in A Spring Affair is no different! Ok, I think this might be my favourite of hers so far!

 

 

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It was You / Jo Platt

When life falls apart, friendship will keep you together. Alice Waites has been happily single for almost two years.When her close friends in The Short Book Group gently question her current distinct lack of interest in men, she accepts that maybe it is time to deal with the past and open herself up to new possibilities.Oh yes, the time has come to go dating again.However, things soon unravel for Alice as she uncovers the secret heartache and hopes of those around her. And her most surprising discovery is the life-changing truth which she has kept hidden, even from herself…

I thought this book started quite slowly but unfortunately, it went on just as slowly. I didn’t have any connection to the characters which isn’t like me at all. The plot was good but I just felt there wasn’t enough emotion towards the end of the book and considering the relationships involved, you would think that would be a main focus.

 

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Dear Amy / Helen Callaghan 

In her guise as ‘Dear Amy’, agony aunt for a local newspaper, Margot Lewis has dealt with all sorts of letters – but never one like this…Dear Amy,I’ve been kidnapped by a strange man. I don’t know where I am. Please help me,Bethan Avery.
This must be a cruel hoax. Because Bethan Avery has been missing for nearly two decades.But as the present-day search intensifies for another missing schoolgirl, Margot is unnerved enough to take the letter to the police, hoping they will dismiss it as a sick joke.Instead, they let Margot in on a little secret. One that confirms her darkest fears and tangles her up in the search for the sender, which could save one young girl’s life and cost Margot her own…

This book was completely different to what I thought it would be like. It is absolutely incredible and so so detailed. Disturbing n a few areas but fantastic. All I can say is WHAT A PLOT TWIST.

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The Corner Shop of Whispers / Debbie Viggiano

Romantic Florrie, scatty Daisy and snobby Alison are neighbours, living their married lives in the tiny English village of Lower Amblegate where everyone knows everybody. Together the three friends share laughter, tears, and things they wouldn’t want anybody else knowing. But unbeknownst to them, a scandal is brewing. As rumours circulate, the gossips go into overdrive, rocking marriages and revealing the women have much more in common than just neighbourly bonds…

I absolutely loved this book! The characters are all absolutely different and so like people you can relate to in real life. I absolutely loved the plot and was so so happy with the ending. Florrie is absolutely hilarious in parts but Daisy is my absolute favourite! The friendship between the three girls is incredible.

What did you read last month? Please leave me suggestions!

Much love,

louise-x

Louise Chatters: March

I really love writing these posts because they let me reflect on my month but this one seems to have passed so quickly yet I feel like I have not done anything. Spring has definitely begun and with it there has been some glorious weather. I can’t wait to be able to take more walks and do some exploring.

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UHHHH I’ve been in such a rut recently and I have no idea why. I wrote a post on it because I just wanted to know if others ever felt the same and they do! Which I take comfort in knowing that it’s not only me who feels this way.

I have actually socialised so much this month which is really good compared to normal. But honestly, I am knackered. Apart from socialising, life is pretty quiet to be honest. Next month will probably be a little busier as I really want to make a trip home and it is both Michael and my birthdays.

 

I had really good therapy sessions this month. We talked about my routines and why I have them and how we need to work on my relationship with them. I mean, I love my routines so I don’t exactly want to change them but I always give everything a try. I also talked about relationships with close people which was good. We talked about how detached I feel from everything and it was good letting it all out. Now I just need to find some solutions to start getting through the tough times.

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I spent the first week of March with a horrible flu which seen me miss a whole week of the gym. Which wasn’t great considering I ate like a horse in Paris and never exercised. Anyways, I reallly need to get out of the habit of eating absolute rubbish at the weekend. I need to change my relationship with food but it’s just so hard! I went to my first HIIT class and by god, I am SORE. It was so so intense and obviously, it’s meant to be but still. I never realised how hard it would be. I think I’ll try and go every second week! I’ve realised that quick weight loss and me just don’t get on and I end up giving up far too easily. So I’ve decided to take it slowly and work on changing my lifestyle completely.

I’ve not as much been doing a full veggie week every month anymore. I’ve been pretty much eating vegetarian about 80% of the month. I’ve rarely been eating meat and it feels good!

 

When it comes to blogging, I’ve recently not felt like writing which gets me down. I love writing but I just feel so detached from everything that I can’t even string a sentence together. Regarding social media, I’m absolutely useless at the whole Instagram thing! And my Twitter followers just refuse to climb. Yes I know, I know, it’s not all about numbers but the more followers you have, the more views your blog gets BOOM.

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Much love,

louise-x

Louise Chatters: January

Okay, so I ran a twitter poll and lots of my followers said that they would quite enjoy a monthly update post about what’s been going on in my life each month. I had no idea what to call these posts and because I’m not the most creative, I’m gonna go with ‘Louise Chatters’ since these posts will be updates about my life and will be quite chatty and informal. Some months, probably most moths, not much will have happened at all, but I feel like these posts will also allow me to look back on my year and see what was happening.

January has been alright actually. Definitely more ups than downs which is always superb. I really struggled getting back into the routine of work. But then after the first week it was just normal. I felt like the weeks were whizzing past before Christmas and now that it’s all over, the weeks are going SO slowly. But they’re still so busy. I absolutely love my job but I love weekends so much more because that means I can spend time with my nearest and dearest.

I was about three months late to the game but I went to see Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them and it was AMAZING. I had low expectations and oh my lord, I couldn’t have been more wrong about the film. I’m definitely going to try and get to the cinema more often because its such a good escape.

So, I set myself a goal of ‘losing the chub.’ I’m noticing such a difference already which is always good. I always have so many set backs but I’m now finished my third week since changing my lifestyle and tomorrow is weigh in day! I’ve lost 8lbs so far which I’m v chuffed about. I also went to my first spin class which was SO good. I was dreading it so much but I knew it would be so worth it. I’ve never been to an exercise class before because it gives me the absolute fear but I did it! I managed to look past exercising with other people and I won’t be looking back. My second week of spin was not as hard – I worked myself harder but never had sore legs for days after like the first.

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I decided to try going veggie for a week of every month. Obviously it’s only January but I honestly felt so great after my week of being meat free. I’ve been back on meat for 1 week now and I kinda feel rubbish compared to without it. So I think I’m going to try and cut a lot more meat out which hopefully makes me feel great.

So, I just got a letter through the door with a date for starting my new therapy with a new Dr. NERVOUS. I find it so hard to open up to new people but if I want to help myself, then I’m going to have to suck it up and get on with things. My Dr has warned me at how intense it’s going to be because the sessions are going to be weekly and it’s a big investment for the NHS.

I got to catch up with friends this month which made me super happy as we never see each other now we have graduated. Had such a good night with these guys in the middle of the month. I also celebrated a friends birthday at the end of the month which was a great night! So my social life has been pretty good haha!

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I’ve also been working on my blogging goals that I set myself too! This month I became louisechatters.com! YAY.  I also reached 1450 Twitter followers and 340 Instagram followers so I’m beginning to make a dent in my goals for the year!

What have you been upto this month?

Much love,

louise-x

Blogmas Day 6: Winter biscuits

At this time of year, people tend to like to treat themselves and have that little extra food. And that’s completely okay. T’is the season and all. Not that I need any reason to indulge.

Anyway, I love baking and have already blogged some of my favourite baking recipes. I am not talented at baking whatsoever, but I enjoy it and when other people enjoy my baking too, then I don’t see why I shouldn’t share what I’ve been baking.

I was really in the mood for biscuits this weekend and at the end of last month I picked up some new cutters, so I thought I would make some festive treats. To be honest, these can be made any time of the year but the baby blue colour reminded me of winter!

This recipe is so easy and does not take long at all! You can decorate your biscuits in any way you like!

 

Ingredients 

250g butter, softened                                                      400g Icing sugar

140g caster sugar                                                              Sweets to decorate

1 egg yolk                                                                             Food colouring

2 tsp vanilla extract

300g plain flour

 

Method

Preheat your oven to 180 degrees / gas mark 4

Weigh out all your ingredients so they’re easy to grab

Cream your butter and sugar together until they are well combined and slightly fluffy

Beat an egg and add to the mixture, along with 2 teaspoons of vanilla extract

Stir in your flour to the mixture and mix together until a dough is formed

Lightly flour your worktop in preparation for rolling your dough

Use a rolling pin to roll out your dough to a thickness of about 1cm

Use your cookie cutters to cut the dough and carefully place onto a baking tray

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Bake your biscuits for 10-12 minutes or until they are golden brown

Leave your biscuits to cool

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Once cooled, sift your icing sugar into a bowl and add some water until you have a nice and smooth icing mixture

Add food colouring if you wish to change the colour of the icing

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Spread the icing onto your biscuits with a round bladed knife and decorate with sweets if you wish

And there you have it! Enjoy.

 

Have you got any Christmas baking recipes you want to share?

19 sleeps!

Much love,

Louise